Father injects every year take medicine should cost nearly 10 thousand yuan, although Li Qiong every months of live frugaly, but still earn insufficient medical treatment to expend. The eye is seeing the debt in the home is increasing, the illness also has disappeared to turn, a day of 2000, father calls the daughter to the front of the bed, hold in mouth or eyes wears tear says: “The child, my disease was not treated again, can live a few days to boil a few days to calculate! Li Qiongpit-a-patgenuflect is on the ground, burst into tears: “Father, I and little sister had been broken went to mom, or else can do not have father, the daughter earns money more certainly cure your disease.when the end of the year, to make bit of money more, li Qiong went to Guangdong to work. Those who listened to Li Qiong pour out, ceng Ming sobs for it unceasingly, he tells Li Qiong: “I also come out from the country, I understand the hardships with rural vivid life very much.

I like raining weather particularly, because be in my childhood memory,perhaps be, always have water ah, tear ah these elements. When raining, I can sit all the day in the position that relies on be born glazing all the day, outside looking at a window motionlessly, do not suffer any interference ground to think my a load on one’s mind casually, thinking at most is my mom of course truly, I feel the rain outside the window is the tear of my Mom, I did not feel she had died, I feel she is together with me every day, talk with me in the heart.
Be not month of saying mother, it is his foster mother really, rather says, should be a wet nurse. I was born the 9th day to be sent home of father, mom by parents of my one’s own, because be before me, an elder sister died young, after I am born, the person of fortune-telling says this child face takes murderous look, gram family member, must send toward bring up, your Excellency otherwise child life one cannot say for sure. Parents of my one’s own is mechanism cadre admittedly, but died young as a result of the first child, also dare not believe these, be in same the family searched in the county, hope to look to be my fosterage over there them there. Honest, an elder brother of my mom also can choose photograph art, when seeing me, also say my face takes murderous look, decisive object mom accepting me, he says: “You should raise this child, can live less 20 years.but, mom also is in as mother of my one’s own in those days confined, see I am born suddenly fondly heart, she says: “I aux would rather live less 20 years, also want to raise him.

Time is long, it is reasonable that she suspects he had an affair — the concern between them is small weak arriving is a greeting a few only. But one day, pang of her midnight abdomen, be afraid of with her feeling is acute appendicitis, the child is still small, he has not come back, she saw a table, before dawn a bit, she thinks, he closed most propbably already mobile phone. Bearing painful, find out his number, hit. Did not think of to be connected unexpectedly.

Be this kind of self-confidence, make he always feels the woman before is not quite good still. He enjoys the love beside happily perhaps, or Xiao lives single life far, await amorous feelings secretly at the same time 10 thousand kinds at the same time virtuous extremely the wife appears, even if there is this kind of woman at all on the world. The more teenager achieve one’s ambition, by the woman the man of excessive angle, suffer from easily more on love is blind and proud disease. Love impulsion of the man isquality, is notaffection.

Thought I was a worthy loved, I am reluctant to hand him, on the one hand and very guilty, he told me the better the more I blame, I began to hate myself, why I started is not the kind of girl he wants it. I am responsible for the psychological tangles in, pretend to be also very good, pretend
To be a girl he wants, but after having to pretend I feel that they are shameless, he is so good so good a boy, he should not love me, He should love a better girl, and I just pretended to care about him, and pretended to be dependent on him, I then separate what a person will not pretend,
Always have to look like he is actually quite lovely, and sometimes I think so. But, after all, my heart is good, I do not want to hurt him, because I think I love him enough, I feel sorry for him on my love, I feel that I really do not deserve him. Breaking up is my, breaking my own

Not want to pay not what I do not know how to care for others, not me do not know how to love, but I am psychologically protect themselves from harm. As long as I do not love others, they will never expect to hurt me. But I also told him that I had never been one like him that
Cared about. He really is a good person, like Christ as an attempt to save me from the psychological shadow.
Then I began to try his romance with a little inside to pay. Little happy days I’ve also very much hope, but with him, I found him too much good, too much innocence, I have not seen the kind of man,
He put me too, too seriously , but I just pretended to love him. I began to guilt, I keep and own inner struggle. But he did not know what I was a person what kind of experience, he thinks I’m good, sound like love to me, but he was more good to me, I was more sad, I always

Received 20 roses to be cold I can not be neglected. I hand knitted scarves to him very popular among students because of time weaving, but also because of courtesy, my birthday he sent me the purple scarves are still my closet. Love letters from him, I am happy, and even a bit excited. My life, I experienced the first
Time a guy to pursue me by normal logic. I love the attitude of the newspaper like his contacts had. But only just love it, he was greatly satisfied my quest for the expansion of my vanity. I am very proud and the master key universities in love, but I reject his pay, I just wanted to tell him to
Keep the relationship in love it, I do not want to pay their own feelings, I do not want to care about who is going to shed tears sad sad. Of course, he quickly noticed, and he told me, when a showdown, perhaps because I had bad acceptance, my surprise, he spoke out on what to my mind, I do

Imagine him with patriotism, he is my second love to imagine carrier, but count on him love not had time to grow up in failure. It was sophomore, in 2005 autumn awareness XLJ, he was just chasing me with KG at the same time, I just think people love to occasionally find a just, so we chose the first opening
Of the KG, because I know he is like a long time ago me. But our time together, not a week I was in the Big Wild Goose Pagoda in the rainy night in and left him, probably just because I feel I can not eat dinner together with the Southerners, maybe I’m waiting for XLJ chase me. October 27
Of that year, I received the flowers he sent, it is the first time I received flowers sent by a man, even if that day is not my birthday, but from that year onwards, I started more than a birthday. I admit I am vain, even if I did not like him much. But my real birthday, the day I

I saw his diary written in autumn 2004: "ZF, I think I love you." I just thought possible. He is married HZ after the men in my life. His presence is very short, but I am just going to university in the first semester, we seem to have a touch of What we were in love is lightning, blinking in
The effort seems to end, probably to the end of my military training When it, I seem to have not had time to feel the love he feels, we are not, then contact us to separate then, after that I began to miss our time together was brief, and miss his handsome appearance, miss him to the way I play
Guitar. Memory is fuzzy, maybe we do together was too short. I then pondered, thinking I was such a loved person, and then started making tears, and cried a few times, I think I fell in love with him, they begin to look forward to his return, he may eventually can only be a passing in my life. I just

Was not happy. Shop around to find the boy she’s coming from, but no one knows what to the where the boys. Constantly looking for girls all day, but she did not know already the embodiment of the boys into the dragonfly is not around her all the time, but he will not cry, do not embrace, he could only